Burnout

I had full intention of posting weigh-in Wednesday last week...until I got on the scale...fucking thing  (excuse my french) but that's just how I felt.  I was so damn pissed, disappointed, just, just everything.  I have been so good with my eating ok not perfect but pretty damn close and I have totally been killing it in the work out department I'm talking about 6 days a week and at least a 300 calorie burn and yet I still didn't break into the 160's yet.  I was freaking 170.0...really.  and yes I know I shouldn't let the scale dictate to me but it's my thing, and yes I have written on here that I won't let it dictate my moods or feeling, but  jeez louise can't a girl get a break.

Also on that same line I feel I have been working SOO hard and then not to see the number go down is like a slap in the face.  To be completely honest with myself I know I'm losing I can feel it in my clothes and even in my muscle definition but my eyes want to see it reflected on the scale as well!!  Especially when I feel that I have been burning the candle at both ends so to speak.  I'm eating really well, and I go to gym constantly (and at odd hours as to spend some quality time with the fam), weight lifting, cross truing, and keeping up with my running.  Also throw in that DQ has started school and soccer it's been a mad house.  Oh and now the hubs is working 7 days a week for the next 6-8weeks ARE YOU EFFING KIDDING ME!!!

So that is why I was MIA again... I was just so angry ok and maybe still a little  that I just wanted to say eff it... I did stay on track with eating just less perfect and I did go to the gym as always (cause I pay for that shit) but  I really just didn't want to write another  "ALMOST THERE BUT NOT QUITE BUT I'M OK WITH IT" post cause I wasn't so that's the story.  and I'm pretty sure I won't hit the 160's tomorrow and I WILL be pissed and probably have a hissy fit, but I need to stay accountable and keep posting and writing cause even though we all love to read about the great successes  there is always some bumps in the road (and if not then that sh*t ain't real or they're not telling the truth)  and it's ok to be pissed and mad this is REAL LIFE and it's not always perfect....

They Do Exist

This weekend was pretty chill for the most part.  Friday the hubs and I decided to take DQ to her first drive-in. Yes they really do still exist!! We grabbed a pizza and headed off to see Planes (totally cute movie). I tried telling myself 2 slices if pizza was enough but with the smell of my most favorite food wafting all over the car I had a 3rd ...

I wasn't to thrown off I knew that I was running 5 miles in the morning and I promised myself I would push myself a but more.  Not that you can out train a bad diet, but the rest of the weekend was right on target.  So my running clothes are becoming looser so as not to lose my drawers while running I went out and got a new pair.  I wanted shorts instead of capris this time and this is what I found

 

HOLY CRAP I'm sportin' hot pink booty shorts IN PUBLIC!!  but I have to admit they don't look so bad..lol who would have thought I would have the guts to do that not me that's for sure. I did good on my run and kept a little over a 12 min pace.  I'm  feeling more confidant training for my half mary this time around.  I'm not sure if it's that I know what to expect or that I'm just getting better.

 

The rest of the weekend I spent in my new craft room :)  I'm working on opening an etsy store.  I do all kinds of crafting but I'm focusing on hair accessories for my shop.  Seeing as I have 2 girls I always love doing their hair not that DQ is very willing so instead of buy all those super cute bow's and fancy headbands I figured I could make them myself being all crafty like.   Then at school the parents were asking me where I got them and when I told them I had made it I started to get orders and a few even suggested an etsy shop.  So I finally am taking the plunge and try my hand at it.   When I get it up and running I'll post a link and you can all check it out if you like

 

and finally today is the last day of summer break for DQ so now that we are finally unblocked (we have passes but are blocked out in the summer)  we decided to hit up Disneyland for a mommy DQ date.  I let her chose all the rides and it wasn't very busy until the afternoon.  Luckily she has learned that we can always come back another day and don't have to do everything at once so around 1pm we headed home. 

I took tomorrow off as well so I could walk my baby to her first day of 1st grade (where has the time gone).  Since she goes to school by Grammies I will probably hang out and hit up Joann's Craft looking for some more fun things to tinker with until she gets out of school.

Weigh In Wednesday

I'm so freakin tired!! It is taking all I have to get to the gym tonight (going right after I type this).  We changed our Group X training time from 6pm to 7pm which is hard seeing as I normally go to bed by 8-830 especially since I get up the next morning at 3:00am to run...Oh well I'll survive (I hope)!

Any way my weight was up today 171.8 (+1.4) ugg!! But it's not surprising, I feel like a yo-yo lately and I'm doing everything right, keeping my calories under 1500 getting in my workouts.  I don't know what else to do??  It's so damn frustrating!!! 

We've grown!! My Group X ladies :)